Thursday, December 28, 2017


Where has this year gone????

I cannot believe there are only THREE days left of 2017. Part of me is glad. I am always ready for a fresh start. Part of me is sad..this year flew boys are growing up, I'm getting older, my parents are getting older. But I am so happy, thankful, grateful, that we made it another year. Another year of birthdays, holidays, more time together.

I have been doing a lot of reflection lately. I will be FORTY in a few months. Am I where I want to be? Nope.  Am I HAPPY where I a m. You Betcha!! I have two wonderful, healthy boys. A job. A house to live in. Heat and air. Food. A car. And a whole lot of love. And a bunch more to be thankful for.

What do I want for 2018? I am still pondering this. I want lots of things. I hope to do lots of things and accomplish lots of things. I'll post my goals for the upcoming year soon. One of which is to blog, blog, blog. I know I don't post pics of me or my family but that (hopefully) will change. I am a weird, paranoid freak, however. :)

I remember this quote I heard (on a movie or a show I believe.) Probably on the Hallmark channel...but she said, "If you have to reminded not to miss something, you might be missing everything." This is so true. Random quote of the

Some of my goals:

Read PD
Run a 5k
Blog more
Dates with my boys
Be present.

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and a safe and happy new year!

Monday, October 2, 2017

October Goals

Praying for Las Vegas. Praying for this country.
I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend. I was blessed to witness two wonderful people get married. Beautiful wedding.
Today I am borrowing an idea from ItStartsWithCoffee. I wanted to actually get back to goal setting and not so many goals so that they are attainable.
I want to accomplish the following in October ...
  • Meal plan/prep every week. For one, this will save me a ton of time during the week. Two, I will no doubt save some moolah!
  • Read one personal development book and one good, easy read.
  • Have family night twice this month. This can be hard as I typically only have my boys two weekends during the month. And those weekends they want to spend them with their friends and not with mom. I'm lame!
  • Pamper myself one day. Have a complete ME day. Massage, pedicure, manicure. Anything my heart desires
  • Work on my business.
  • Workout 4 days a week.
What are your goals for October?
Have a wonderful Monday!

Thursday, September 7, 2017

Currently ...

Happy Thursday!!

I am gearing up for this weekend and once again .. why do the short weeks always feel like the longest?! Here's what is happening:

Feeling ... tired. This school is just kicking my tail. Add to that the fact I have been getting up 4:30/4:45 to work out in the morning! I am beat and look forward to the day I can sleep in til about 6:30...AM.. :)

Reading... You Are a Badass!! I started this a while ago and never finished it (shocking, I know.) I am just taking one chapter a night .. at the least.

Watching .. "Younger." This is my favorite show and the one I religiously watch.

Working on ... ME!

Needing .. to get my photos organized. I have lots of pics to hang up and put in albums and need to get started on that.

Loving .. this weather! It is 54 degrees this morning!!

I hope everyone has a wonderful Thursday! We have another busy night and so glad I was able to get my workout in this morning!!

Saturday, September 2, 2017

Should I ?

Happy Saturday Folks!

I am finally blogging from my personal computer and that is the one with the pictures on them. I am debating posting the very raw and embarrassing before picture the posted on that "private" instagram page. I am not sure I am ready to open that up as I want to be more consistent for myself first.

I start a new workout on Tuesday .. 21 day fix .. and it is a HUGE facebook group. I am looking forward to that.

We didn't do much today. I worked out. Then we ran some errands. Did a little fall decorating but still have a ways to go. The workout I did was Cize, "in the pocket." Here is a clip. lol

I have always been one to care what people think about me and that is something that I have worked on now for a while. It is very hard to be so vulnerable when you feel so gross and disgusting. There is only one person who can change that, though!

this was in April...I am a little bit bigger now. :/

Not much on the agenda this evening. Watched some football. Made some dinner. Will read some PD and call it a night!!!

Hope everyone has a great night!!

Monday, August 28, 2017

Life Lately


Well, it's only been a little over one month since I last checked in. I know I sound like a broken record but this time ... this time ...  I feel this may change.

We have been busy in the "back to school" routine. I am so thankful. I am working in a different city than where I live so have a bit of commute, but I don't mind it too much right now. Overall, life has been great! Boys are great! Family is great! Work is great!

But then there's me. On the outside I am "great!" On the inside, meh .. not so great!

I am struggling. I cannot find my happiness. Or my purpose. I am a grown woman and feel as though I have nothing to offer this world. I have once again lost myself (maybe I never found ME to begin with.) I am just so unhappy with myself. I feel I'm not a good mom, daughter, sister, friend, employee. I feel so alone in this world. My friends are few and far between. Most days I feel my kids hate me. I am not extremely happy in my "career" but stay here because it pays my bills and just living off of one income, this is a must. I haven't had a male friend in years and no...I don't need a man to make me happy but every once in a while, male companionship would be nice. A nice distraction at least. But at the end of the day, I have to make myself happy and love myself before anything will change.

I remember, almost a year ago, something finally "clicked" and I was working out everyday, eating clean, and felt the best than I have in a really long time. But then something "clicked" and I stopped working out every day. I stopped eating clean. I stopped being happy with me.

I am not making excuses but us women need a support system. Ever since I moved from the metroplex and away from everything I have known for several years, I feel alone. I don't have anyone to talk to or do things with. I just have my kids and my parents. Don't get me wrong, I love them, but certain things you need your girlfriends to talk to and get you through. I have several sisters but everyone has their own life and their own things going on. I'm not super close to any of them. The one I am most close to lives a thousand miles away and is considerably younger so we are in completely different stages of life at the moment.

I don't know. Maybe I just thought this would help me feel better.

I have social media of course. But, I decided to start a second one. I need to lose a significant amount of weight and this second one is for that purpose only. I am posting very raw pictures and don't really want it public just yet as I know the world can be and often is, a very cruel place. I will share one day just not this day.

Thanks for reading and if anyone has any suggestions on finding your happiness and just finding yourself, I am very appreciative!


Saturday, July 22, 2017


Seriously!? It has been almost SIX months since my last post. I knew it had been a while but not that long. Time seriously flies!

Life has been good since February. Of course, we are on summer break and school starts back in less than a month (woohoo.) We are taking a family vacation pretty soon. I am so excited as I have NEVER taken an entire week off from work. EVER!

Workouts have been good (for the last 27 days.) I am participating in this 90 day challenge and am very happy with myself thus far. I have stuck to my workouts so would like to think I have now formed a habit. The true test will come when we are on vacation. I have to work out while I am gone but I have faith in myself I can and will do it!!

We celebrated my son's birthday today at a wakeboarding park. It was fun but baby, was it hot!!

Tomorrow we are headed to Hurricane Harbor. Two full days of fun in the sun and I'm just praying we don't get sick as that typically happens.

I hope all is well with everyone. (if anyone even sticks around and reads this.)

I won't even say I hope to blog soon but I sure do hope to blog soon!

Sunday, February 5, 2017

Weekly Workouts

Happy Super Bowl Sunday!

Anyone having any parties? Going to any parties? Making any yummy snacks?

I believe we are having some ribs, wings, and some dips .. I can't wait.

I wanted to start blogging my weekly workouts. I have been doing very well with my workouts and this is a way to sorta keep up with them and for accountability.

I wanted to workout today but I have worked out everyday for the last 7-8 days and my body needed to rest. I am going on week SEVEN of this cold/allergy/sinus crap so I completely rested today.

Sunday: REST

Monday: 60 min cardio and arm burnout

Tuesday: 30 min cardio and legs

Wednesday: 60 min cardio and leg burnout

Thursday: 30 min cardio and arms

Friday: 60 min cardio, abs

Saturday: 30 min cardio and legs

I hope to add a couple more ab days ... but I will see. I'm not sure what my work schedule is for the week yet so this may be changed up a bit.

Have a good Sunday!

GO FALCONS!! I'm a fan for the day! :)

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

Currently ...

Currently ...
Feeling... Great! The weather has been beautiful  but I am sure it will be changing soon!

Reading... "You are a Badass!"  .. Yep ... still reading this .. lol

Watching... Nothing .. there are really no shows I am watching .. I just rewatch all of the Hallmark movies I record.

Wanting... to get to posting on the regular!!!

Excited... for the weekend! and for our upcoming move.

Hoping... the awesome weather stays around and just for life just to continue getting better and better!


Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Life Recap

Man ... last time I posted was September!! Not good and not what I wanted for this here ole blog.

Once again, I hope to get back to a regularly scheduled blog post. At least once a week, if not more.

Life lately .. well, we had Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas. I also took my boys to Las Vegas in November. They loved it and we had a lot of fun. I know some may judge or criticize that I took them there but it's one of my favorite places and believe it or not there is tons of things for kids to do. We didn't stay out really late but we had a lot of fun and I will most likely be taking them back soon. This was also their first plane ride.

We are also finally moving out of my parents house. This is good for them and us. :) I am so grateful to them and they'll never know how appreciative we are and I just home I am able to repay them for everything one day.

My workouts are on point! Not to brag but I am so proud of myself. One day back in October it finally clicked in my brain and I have been at it ever since. I have embraced weight training and absolutely love it. I have some fitness goals that I am not ready to share just yet, to accomplish by end of year, and I am super excited.

My diet is still something I struggle with daily. I have been preparing meals on Sunday though. I have found that my problem is that I get tired of eating the same thing all week. I need to not make quite so much of one thing or prepare twice a week instead of doing it all on Sundays. This would be challenging during the week but I think it would work better for me, personally.

I hope everyone is doing great if anyone reads this anymore!