Sunday, February 21, 2016


Happy Sunday to You!

This post will be nothing about losing weight or eating healthy or working out. Instead, it's going to be more of a therapeutic outlet for me today. I would absolutely love feedback and suggestions...if anyone reads And PS: it will probably be all over the place.

Since my divorce I have said, manytimes, "I don't even know who I am anymore." Fast forward almost 19 months later ... and that is still true today.

For a long time I had thought about making a list of all the things I want to do or would like to try. Call it my "divorce bucket list." I never have. Well...actually I did a couple months after but I wanted to do another one since time has past and well, let's be honest, I have done not one thing on that list.

I have been angy, sad, depressed these last few months. I told a girlfriend of mine, last week, that I have accepted that I am going to be single forever and I am okay with that. She told me something that really resonated with me. She said, "you just have to really love yourself before you will find love again." Boom...she nailed it. And that got me thinking, how do I love myself. What do I even want to do or enjoy doing or love doing? What makes me, me? What do people love about me? So I pondered over that the rest of the weekend.

Then ... last Sunday (Valentine's Day) me and my sister went to see How to be Single. I freaking loved that movie. It was the perfect movie at the perfect time for me. I laughed, I cried, and it taught me to look at being single different. It taught me to embrace singlehood and take this time to rediscover myself, who I am, and what I want out of this life. I knew I wanted to see it again.

And first, I wanted to write all of it down. And I did just that. It is a continuous list, as I think of something I want to do or try or learn. There is no time limit on my list.

Not only am I a single woman but I am also a single mom. And as a single mom, this presents me with .... challenges, per say. It is challenging to fit in workouts and me time between working a full time job and shuttling boys around to practices and games and birthday parties and wherever else they need to be.

Thankfully, they are with their father on his weekends so that gives me time to do what I need to do which is clean the house, do laundry, games, grocery store, and then rest from the week prior. What single mom has time to actually enjoy time for her? Well, this one. I am going to make me a priority from now on.

I want to learn to play tennis...I want to take a cooking class...I want to teach Cize...I want to smile more...I want to be happy everyday...and most importanlty, I want to love myself.

Thursday, February 11, 2016

Currently ...

I am super excited to link up for the first time ever with Christy @ planestrainsandrunningshoes. I have been following her for a while and I just love her blog. I have a sister who lives in DC so I enjoy telling her all about Christy's adventures she does in the Capitol.
Feeling ... Great!!
Reading ... "The Luckiest Girl Alive" by Jessica Knoll. Let me correct myself ... I am about 4 pages in because I always start reading at the skatepark or soccer and well, let's be honest. I get distracted. It seems like a really good book and I will be done with it before month end! Boom
Watching ... I am actually watching nothing...I do not have time to watch tv. I am seriously thinking of canceling my cable and just keeping netflix. However, I did binge watch Season 1 of Younger. Is anyone watching this..I love it!
Thinking about ... Summer vacation.
Wanting ... It to be Spring.
Annoyed ... Workouts .. they are sucking this week! I have only managed to do Cize. I got stood up my trainer! We are a go for tomorrow at 9:00 AM sharp!
Drinking ... Water of course. And it tastes so much better out of this cute little water bottle.

Excited ... for our 3 day weekend! No school or work Monday!! Whoop Whoop!!
Loving ... This awesome weather in Texas today!! I'm not mad about! 70 and Sunny!
Have a good day!!

Tuesday, February 9, 2016

Old Habits Die Hard

Or that's what appears to be happening.

I sound like a broken record. I will blog more. I will blog more. It is sort of a therapeutic outlet form me. So why can't I just DO IT?!

What am I doing??

Not sure anyone really reads this .. but I am .. working full time. Being a single mommy. Which, PS: Is my favorite thing to do (not the single part.) Shuttling my boys to wherever they need to go. Trying to keep my house cleaned...PS: this is hard. Way, way hard. And trying to get this body in shape! I have goals and I am working on those.

I plan on taking my kids on a big trip ... for them anyways ... this summer. They are stoked! I am stoked. And I am so blessed I am able to take them on a trip like this as a single mom and doing it all by myself.

What do my workouts consist of ??


Typically, MWF - personal trainer

This is changing this week to:

MWF - personal trainer and CIZE - My true love!! Have you done this? I have big plans for this.
TR / R  - The Barre Code - My second love!!

....aaaaaand when I am feeling extra ambitious ... I hope to run / walk 6 days a week ...

I have a little goal (which I dislike putting out there) to run a half by the end of the year. Obviously, I need to be running more than 2 miles but ... baby steps folks, baby steps!

I hope to provide a weekly update on Sunday evenings as to what am I doing for the week. I feel as though this would hold me accountable .. to write...

What am I eating??

How about ... what am I not eating!! This is my biggest struggle. And after I workout .. guess what .. I am starving!! Does this happen to anyone else??? It is so annoying.

Personal Life??

Well, thank goodness I have awesome kids, an even more awesome family, and awesome friends. And when I'm not hanging out with awesome people, I am usually watching the Hallmark Channel. I absolutely love this channel. Especially at Christmas! I'm not dating because... well... I don't have the time or the energy. I figured that what is meant to be and when is out of my control and I am perfectly happy doing me, focusing on my kids, and better myself for them.

Hope ya'll have a great Tuesday!!