Wednesday, February 14, 2018

Happy Valentines Day ** What Are You Doing ** Favorite Candy

Happy Valentine's Day!!

What are you guys doing for Valentine's Day? Did you already celebrate?

I will be working. I work part time in a restaurant and we are fully booked. We took reservations from 5:00 PM - 8:30 PM with a preset menu. Every spot is reserved and we have a waitlist. I am excited. I love super busy nights and it will go fast. It was super busy last night and Thursday and Friday are pretty booked as well. Lots of reservations so far. And let me just say .. I love working here. I had no restaurant experience prior to starting and I just Host but I absolutely love it.

As I mentioned yesterday, I already celebrated with my boys. I just got them something small and they will get that today. What do you get your kids? Do you celebrate? What is your favorite candy to receive. I love Reese's Peanut Butter Cups. Saw this gems at Target and had to have a bag. I kept three and sent the bag with one of my sons to hand out to his teachers at school. Win Win!

 Yesterday after my workout and recover drink I was starving, to the point I got the shakes. I whipped up this yummy post workout meal and it was delicious! Hit the spot.
And then I wanted a brownie. These are gluten free. Not dairy free, though. My boys loved them and I didn't tell them they were gluten free until AFTER .. because you know .. they would have a predetermined "I don't like them."  
I did get up and walk my 1 mile today. I wanted to do 30 minutes flat but I had to get back home and I still wanted to get in a leg workout. My calves get tremendously sore/crampy when I am walking. Not sure if it is my shoes or the simple fact I am out of shape lol... but does this happen to anyone and what helped? Weird side note, IF I do the elliptical, my toes go numb. Therefore, I don't do the elliptical all that much. That happen to anyone else?


For my leg workout I did a barre workout. Holy Smokes. I forgot how hard these are. My girlfriends own a Barre studio and used to help her out. Man ... these workouts are NO JOKE!!

I hope everyone has a fantastic Valentine's Day celebrating with your spouse, partner, kids, or celebrate yourself!! Do something nice for you.

Tuesday, February 13, 2018

Why I Started


Can't believe it's almost been two months since my last post ... who am I kidding?! Yes, I can.

But .. today is a new day. I tell you, I know we all have been through some stuff, are going through some stuff, or will be going through some stuff. However, it seems like that stuff always hits at the same time. That's exactly what has been going on with me. I have done my best to remain positive and give it to God. Go on Faith. Pray. It helps. I thank Him everyday for a new day. A new day to start over. A new day to make a change. A new day to do something different. That's all we can do, right?

What I want to start on this wee blog is what I wanted to do in the very beginning. Walk myself to skinny. I know a lot more now than I did then and know that you just can't walk yourself skinny. Abs are made in the kitchen, right?! But, I do hope to start getting out or on the dreadmill for now and get some miles in.

Monday - didn't do crap. Actually, I did. I took my handsome boys to dinner for an early Valentines Day date. I have to work the rest of the week so this was the best time for us!

Tuesday (Today) - I already got it in because, well, I have to work later. :) I walked 1 mile on the treadmill followed by some arms and a brief ab workout. I tell you what ... my core is the weakest part on my body. I seriously did only ... 25 reach throughs. Gotta start somewhere right!

If you were wondering, I came home and did my arms and abs. :)

While on the treadmill I was listening to a podcast. The podcast I listened to today was Shaun T's Trust and Believe. Something he said really hit home with me. "Trust is consistency over time." Truer words have never been spoken. I have a hard time being consistent with just about everything. I don't know why. I could make excuses but I won't. He also said, "We are our own barrier." Yep ... you hit the nail on the head Shaun T. I am the only one standing in my way. Me. I choose to get up and just do it or get up and feel sorry for myself. Can't blame anyone but myself.

Today (one day at a time) I choose to get up and do it. I did do it. I am not going to be my own barrier standing in the way of MY goals. I am preventing myself from being a better me for my family. For what? Because my hand of cards sucks at the moment. What can I do to see the positive in this deck and make my own royal flush? It's time I put my big girl panties on and own it.

Thanks for stopping by! I hope everyone has a great Tuesday!!


Thursday, December 28, 2017


Where has this year gone????

I cannot believe there are only THREE days left of 2017. Part of me is glad. I am always ready for a fresh start. Part of me is sad..this year flew boys are growing up, I'm getting older, my parents are getting older. But I am so happy, thankful, grateful, that we made it another year. Another year of birthdays, holidays, more time together.

I have been doing a lot of reflection lately. I will be FORTY in a few months. Am I where I want to be? Nope.  Am I HAPPY where I a m. You Betcha!! I have two wonderful, healthy boys. A job. A house to live in. Heat and air. Food. A car. And a whole lot of love. And a bunch more to be thankful for.

What do I want for 2018? I am still pondering this. I want lots of things. I hope to do lots of things and accomplish lots of things. I'll post my goals for the upcoming year soon. One of which is to blog, blog, blog. I know I don't post pics of me or my family but that (hopefully) will change. I am a weird, paranoid freak, however. :)

I remember this quote I heard (on a movie or a show I believe.) Probably on the Hallmark channel...but she said, "If you have to reminded not to miss something, you might be missing everything." This is so true. Random quote of the

Some of my goals:

Read PD
Run a 5k
Blog more
Dates with my boys
Be present.

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and a safe and happy new year!

Monday, October 2, 2017

October Goals

Praying for Las Vegas. Praying for this country.
I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend. I was blessed to witness two wonderful people get married. Beautiful wedding.
Today I am borrowing an idea from ItStartsWithCoffee. I wanted to actually get back to goal setting and not so many goals so that they are attainable.
I want to accomplish the following in October ...
  • Meal plan/prep every week. For one, this will save me a ton of time during the week. Two, I will no doubt save some moolah!
  • Read one personal development book and one good, easy read.
  • Have family night twice this month. This can be hard as I typically only have my boys two weekends during the month. And those weekends they want to spend them with their friends and not with mom. I'm lame!
  • Pamper myself one day. Have a complete ME day. Massage, pedicure, manicure. Anything my heart desires
  • Work on my business.
  • Workout 4 days a week.
What are your goals for October?
Have a wonderful Monday!

Thursday, September 7, 2017

Currently ...

Happy Thursday!!

I am gearing up for this weekend and once again .. why do the short weeks always feel like the longest?! Here's what is happening:

Feeling ... tired. This school is just kicking my tail. Add to that the fact I have been getting up 4:30/4:45 to work out in the morning! I am beat and look forward to the day I can sleep in til about 6:30...AM.. :)

Reading... You Are a Badass!! I started this a while ago and never finished it (shocking, I know.) I am just taking one chapter a night .. at the least.

Watching .. "Younger." This is my favorite show and the one I religiously watch.

Working on ... ME!

Needing .. to get my photos organized. I have lots of pics to hang up and put in albums and need to get started on that.

Loving .. this weather! It is 54 degrees this morning!!

I hope everyone has a wonderful Thursday! We have another busy night and so glad I was able to get my workout in this morning!!

Saturday, September 2, 2017

Should I ?

Happy Saturday Folks!

I am finally blogging from my personal computer and that is the one with the pictures on them. I am debating posting the very raw and embarrassing before picture the posted on that "private" instagram page. I am not sure I am ready to open that up as I want to be more consistent for myself first.

I start a new workout on Tuesday .. 21 day fix .. and it is a HUGE facebook group. I am looking forward to that.

We didn't do much today. I worked out. Then we ran some errands. Did a little fall decorating but still have a ways to go. The workout I did was Cize, "in the pocket." Here is a clip. lol

I have always been one to care what people think about me and that is something that I have worked on now for a while. It is very hard to be so vulnerable when you feel so gross and disgusting. There is only one person who can change that, though!

this was in April...I am a little bit bigger now. :/

Not much on the agenda this evening. Watched some football. Made some dinner. Will read some PD and call it a night!!!

Hope everyone has a great night!!

Monday, August 28, 2017

Life Lately


Well, it's only been a little over one month since I last checked in. I know I sound like a broken record but this time ... this time ...  I feel this may change.

We have been busy in the "back to school" routine. I am so thankful. I am working in a different city than where I live so have a bit of commute, but I don't mind it too much right now. Overall, life has been great! Boys are great! Family is great! Work is great!

But then there's me. On the outside I am "great!" On the inside, meh .. not so great!

I am struggling. I cannot find my happiness. Or my purpose. I am a grown woman and feel as though I have nothing to offer this world. I have once again lost myself (maybe I never found ME to begin with.) I am just so unhappy with myself. I feel I'm not a good mom, daughter, sister, friend, employee. I feel so alone in this world. My friends are few and far between. Most days I feel my kids hate me. I am not extremely happy in my "career" but stay here because it pays my bills and just living off of one income, this is a must. I haven't had a male friend in years and no...I don't need a man to make me happy but every once in a while, male companionship would be nice. A nice distraction at least. But at the end of the day, I have to make myself happy and love myself before anything will change.

I remember, almost a year ago, something finally "clicked" and I was working out everyday, eating clean, and felt the best than I have in a really long time. But then something "clicked" and I stopped working out every day. I stopped eating clean. I stopped being happy with me.

I am not making excuses but us women need a support system. Ever since I moved from the metroplex and away from everything I have known for several years, I feel alone. I don't have anyone to talk to or do things with. I just have my kids and my parents. Don't get me wrong, I love them, but certain things you need your girlfriends to talk to and get you through. I have several sisters but everyone has their own life and their own things going on. I'm not super close to any of them. The one I am most close to lives a thousand miles away and is considerably younger so we are in completely different stages of life at the moment.

I don't know. Maybe I just thought this would help me feel better.

I have social media of course. But, I decided to start a second one. I need to lose a significant amount of weight and this second one is for that purpose only. I am posting very raw pictures and don't really want it public just yet as I know the world can be and often is, a very cruel place. I will share one day just not this day.

Thanks for reading and if anyone has any suggestions on finding your happiness and just finding yourself, I am very appreciative!